Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Dear Marriage,

Dear Marriage,

Thank you for 15.8 years.  Although we have not yet parted our ways, I thank you immensely for all the memories and HUGE chunk of my life that I have devoted to you.  This last year of my life has been "very difficult" to say the least.  But you know what?  I am surviving. Only through the guidance of God, conversations with my sister (how she repeatedly talks me off the ledge) and support of my friends.   And in these last few months it is as if I am opening my eyes for the first time in years and breaking through your fog.

I feel good!  Woot!  And we are friendly.  For instance, I went out to lunch with my husband last weekend and we enjoyed ourselves.  That feeling that I had lost a best friend has disappeared and I have a great relationship with my husband again.  Weird, huh?  A very different relationship from what I ever imagined, but a happy one.

And things are only getting better.  Thank you.



Jennifer said...

This post makes me feel schizophrenic. I'm happy -- no, I'm sad -- no, happy! Weird. I can only imagine how difficult your year was. I am HAPPY that you are happy. Tell me about grad school, I keep forgetting to ask for details. How are the kids? Your family? Huge hugs to you as you come out of the fog. Sunny skies ahead, my friend!

Anonymous said...

Please get out of my head. Marriage is HARD. REALLY HARD. Some days, my heart hurts because I miss my best friend - then we have a great day, like we are the Waltons or the Cosbys.

Hugs to you, I hope you have more good days and fewer bad ones!

The Galloping Gobets said...

I am so happy to hear you are having a few MORE of those moments with your husband. As the kids get older, those moments come around more often.
Now that all 5 of ours are grown and NOT at home we have many of those moments. That is not to say I still have those of moments when I find EVERY TV in the house on and he is in the garage! but now I have the patience and the time to talk myself off the ledge. You will too!

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